Mn: There’s also the question of responsibility and I hope people take from your performance that you’re trapped. There’s a point you cross over and you’re just trying to stop and you can’t and it’s terrifying – it all flips and you feel completely out of control. People would joke to me all the time, “I wish I had just a touch of anorexia.”
Shirt by Gucci; skirt
by Topshop Unique“We do a Good job of hiding it... I read interviews that say, “I never Exercise and I Eat whatever I want”
Mn: How did your mom react when she saw the film?
what this movie has the potential to do; to start conversations and take the taboo out of something that is so prevalent. We do a good job of hiding it by putting such an opposite image of ourselves out there, like when I read interviews that say, “Oh, I never exercise and I eat whatever I want, I just have a great metabolism.”
Lc: I was leaving my apartment one day and someone I’ve known for a long time, my mom’s age, said to me, “Oh, wow, look at you!” I tried to explain [I had lost weight for a role] and she goes, “No! I want to know what you’re doing, you look great!” I got into the car with my mom and said, “That is why the problem exists.”
Lc: The first time she was a bit in shock. The second time I looked over at the end and she was sobbing; it really hit her hard. I knew it wouldn’t be easy with the book, talking about all this. I never wanted her to feel responsible; she’s like my best friend. When she saw the movie, I think she recognized so much of me in Ellen. There’s a scene where I’m taking my clothes off to be weighed by Carrie Preston, my stepmom in the movie, who takes a photo on her phone and shows it to me. I didn’t think she’d actually take one but she did. I saw myself in the photo and my heart dropped. SoCredits
Words: Emma Sells. Fashion: Jessica Steuart. Photograph: Bruce Anderson